Standing tall

Didn’t know if I’d get through again today. But of course, I managed. Didn’t even have to sit down today. Took breaks standing up.
And my posture has changed. I just noticed, all of a sudden, that I’m taller. And it doesn’t hurt to hold myself up.


I will walk strong.
When I cannot walk,
I will stand.
When I cannot stand,
I will sit.
When I cannot sit,
I will lie down,
until I can
rise again.
When we’re working with our arms, I often have to stop, and let my shoulders rest. I also sit down, sometimes. But no matter what, I focus and watch.
They keep telling me that […]

No matter what

I’ve decided I should go, no matter how I feel. Today, I was more scared than I have been before. The pain when I woke up was strong, and I wondered—again—if I wouldn’t be able to do it today.
Of course, once we got there, I did it. I modified things to match my ability, sat […]

What’s “too much”?

I woke up again feeling stiff, as always, and I thought—again—that maybe I can’t do this. Then, when I got there, I did it.
And again, when it was over and I had rested (a lot) and showered, I felt great. I felt exhilarated.
If I’m going to hurt, I might as well hurt doing something that […]

I did it!

When I got up this morning, I didn’t think I could do it. But when I got there, I decided to try.
I made it through a whole Karate class.
When other people jumped, I stepped. When other people did ten punches, I did five. Sometimes, I just stopped moving. Still, it wasn’t as gentle—I wasn’t […]

I’m insane

I’m going to do it. Karate. I must be insane.

My son’s karate class

R__ started his Karate class today. I was watching, and I wanted so much to join the class. Sitting on the bench, I followed along part of the time. I even stood up for a bit.
After class, the instructor came and told me that for mother’s day, the dojo was offering moms the first month […]