Archives for June, 2006
Today was the end of my one-month beginners’ class, and now I am ready to join the regular class. The regular class starts right after the beginners’ class ends, and, after a few minutes’ rest, I decided I wanted to do it, today. What was I thinking?! Of course it was “too much.” This time [...]
The Tuesday/Thursday class is in the evening, and it’s a good thing. I had plenty of time to decide whether to go to class tonight. I went, and it wasn’t bad at all. Well, it was hard, but that’s good. I got to find out that I could still get through a hard class. Have [...]
Last week I did five classes, and all was fine. But today wasn’t so fine. I want to say it was the hardest class yet, but I’ve said that too many times. It was really scary, though. I kept thinking, “maybe this is where I’m supposed to quit.” I wondered if I’d pass out. I [...]
My son wanted to do the Tuesday/Thursday class instead of M/W/F, so I drove him. Then, when I got there, I decided to do the class too. Nothing to report. Same “it was hard.” Same “I sweat a lot.” Same “I did it!” Can I do five days a week? I wonder! I’ve started taping [...]
This is starting to feel pretty routine. Wake up sore, do class, feel exhausted and exhilarated. I don’t seem to be heading for a flare. (Yay!) Fibromyalgia and CFS are still there, but things are better, overall. Plenty of naps seems to balance plenty of Karate.
Today started out well. I have been moving well, for instance, and doing basic household things, like picking something up off the floor, moving a box, etc. But now I’m sore. Not so worried about Karate. That seems to make me feel better, instead of worse. But I still wish my legs didn’t hurt so [...]
Slept poorly last night. Woke up stiff, sore, unhappy. I was saying “this is it. I’ve reached the limit. I can’t do the class today.” But then I remembered that I’d promised myself I’d go. If I am able to get into the car and transport myself to the Dojo, I will. Then, if I [...]
I’m back to taking long naps. Karate takes maybe six hours out of every day that I do it. That’s 18 hours a week. But it’s worth it. On my non-Karate days, I can now make dinner, stay awake longer, and play with my kids. I stand straighter, and who knows? I may get strong [...]
Sensei asked me whether I was sore between classes, and I realized that while I’ve had pain during class, and fatigue after, I haven’t experienced any “athletic” soreness. None of that good kind I used to get when I was healthy, after a good workout. I’m pushing hard, and I’m feeling it; I don’t know [...]
Didn’t know if I’d get through again today. But of course, I managed. Didn’t even have to sit down today. Took breaks standing up. And my posture has changed. I just noticed, all of a sudden, that I’m taller. And it doesn’t hurt to hold myself up.
I will walk strong. When I cannot walk, I will stand. When I cannot stand, I will sit. When I cannot sit, I will lie down, until I can rise again. When we’re working with our arms, I often have to stop, and let my shoulders rest. I also sit down, sometimes. But no matter [...]
My son and I have been talking about lies and truth lately. (No big shock there.) We had both concluded, independently, that we don’t like “white lies,” or, in fact, any lies at all, and that authenticity is really important to both of us. Yesterday, he asked me whether there were any circumstances in which [...]
I’ve decided I should go, no matter how I feel. Today, I was more scared than I have been before. The pain when I woke up was strong, and I wondered—again—if I wouldn’t be able to do it today. Of course, once we got there, I did it. I modified things to match my ability, [...]
I woke up again feeling stiff, as always, and I thought—again—that maybe I can’t do this. Then, when I got there, I did it. And again, when it was over and I had rested (a lot) and showered, I felt great. I felt exhilarated. If I’m going to hurt, I might as well hurt doing [...]
When I got up this morning, I didn’t think I could do it. But when I got there, I decided to try. I made it through a whole Karate class. When other people jumped, I stepped. When other people did ten punches, I did five. Sometimes, I just stopped moving. Still, it wasn’t as gentle—I [...]
I’m going to do it. Karate. I must be insane.
R__ started his Karate class today. I was watching, and I wanted so much to join the class. Sitting on the bench, I followed along part of the time. I even stood up for a bit. After class, the instructor came and told me that for mother’s day, the dojo was offering moms the first [...]